It would be so nice.. growing old with you

Okay, magmala-Jenna Hamilton muna tayo at magbalik-loob sa blogging.

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These days had been a roller coaster ride.. Kulang nalang eh mapraning ako sa sobrang daming nangyari. Siguro nga everything happens for a reason. I had the courage to let go of something that's been holding me back for too long.. it wasn't easy pero I needed to.  After several sleepless nights, crying myself to sleep, I realized that being happy is a choice.

Now, I chose to be happy.. Sana lang hindi umikot pabaliktad yung mundo at pagsisihan ko yung mga pinaggagagawa ko.

Natatakot na tuloy ako.. siguro may mali sakin as a "karelasyon". Wala namang taong perfect. I just hope that one day may darating na super compatible with me, yung pupunan yung kakulangan ko.

Again, hindi ako perfect. Inaamin ako may pagkapraning ako. Minsan iniisip ko na hindi narereciprocatan yung love na binibigay ko sa isang tao.. kaya ayoko masyado maattach sa isang tao kasi may fear ako na baka temporary lang... na baka after everything mauwi lang sa wala. Masakit yun. Alam ko na yung feeling na yun.

HIndi naman ibig sabihin nun eh titigil na kong magmahal... go pa rin ako until makita ko yung lalaking talagang para sakin. Naniniwala naman ako dun.. sa soulmates, sa destiny. Syempre sa dinami dami ng tao sa mundo, you'll end up with only one person :-)

To my future boyfriend :)

April 11, 2013

Note:  This isn’t a love letter; or a contract; or something that will pressure you. This is me writing my heart out, at the time when I haven’t met you yet.

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We both know that you aren’t my first. I had few relationships before. I felt and lost love loads of times.  There even had times that I would tell myself that I do not want to fall in love again. Love wasn’t easy for me.

Despite all that, I still believe in destiny. I believe that someone out there is meant to spend the rest of his life with me. I am hopeless romantic. I believe in happy endings.

With this, I am entrusting myself to you. I am giving you my promise of loving you from now until forever and I hope you’ll do the same too. We might be both scared at first, but let this relationship teach us that love is all about taking chances. And now I am taking chances with you.

I am not a manghuhula.. I do not know what the future holds for us. But I hope we can work together to be each other’s future.

To tell you that truth, I am praying that you’d be my last. I am praying that you are that someone that I waited for my whole life. It will really hurt me if this wouldn’t end as I want it to end.. but again, love is an endless cycle. My search for true love continues.

But please, let us make this relationship my happy ending. I do not want break-ups. I am sick tired of waiting.

Don’t worry, you are in good hands. I will be the best girlfriend that you could imagine. We will treat each other as best friends and partners in crime. We will make good memories together. We will be the coolest couple on the planet.

I hope you wouldn’t get sawa. I hope you wouldn’t get tired of texting me every day, and driving me home, and seeing me. I hope we can travel the world together.

If ever we will have arguments, I want us to not end the day without fixing it up. I want us to talk. I want us to be true on what we feel. No hiding, no lies. I want us to share our thoughts;

You can go out with your friends; you can do things on your own.. as long as you inform me about it. Share your experiences; I will be glad to listen.

Get to know my family. I want you to be with me when we have family reunions or such kind. I want my family to know more about you too.

I am looking forward to my everydays with you.